Now You know...

I will marry a VIRGIN....

now you know...

I was so excited, ...my trusted-buddy
Yes I did it!  I made it!  I clang into the air
I rarefied the sly from my childhood days truckers

now you know...

I wailed days and again when they stop stalking me
but I had the confession and bind of mum's
"don't stay close to any man"

now you know

Yeah, I overcame with no levity even
the bully from my adolescenthood mockers
I cried too many times
but clung to dad's
"just make a difference "

now you know

Aha Yes!  I won through this
the hate from my adulthood beef-ers
I whimpered in my reverie
but I was wrapped in clergy's
"marry a virgin "

now you know

Oh! The joy this brings!
Out of my early 20s "intact"
Oh! The pride I feel dries those shimmers of rejections
those oneirisms are in my palms
I have shove the bête noir of my allies

now you know

Alack those days!  I was of little confidence
I'm almost here, not there anymore
The long awaited day blazes in my eyes
I'll shed all that blood for "my beloved "

now you know

I chuckled aloud, uncontrollably giggled and far between tittered
in the strength of my thrill I laid on the shoulder of my "trusted-buddy"

now you know

Phew! I was in cold shoulder
I jolted and searched those happy face of my "trusted-buddy"
I saw less as I looked more
the pale face managed a wry

now you know

Oh golly!  My happy retrospect had turned a noir
What way had this shoulder-lean hurt?
I can't afford to lose my "trusted-buddy"
the friendship meant rapture to me
She laughs when I did
She cries if that's all we could do together

 but.... I want to marry a virgin...
In the pool of my blood I muttered
 ábas my flood of tears I cringed

My "trusted-buddy" held my hands ...
... I was jealous! she yelled in insanity
I couldn't fight the rive
I lost mine over decades in my own escapade
How dare you marry a virgin?
I tried, the broke into tears
I tried to fight that wrath, that hate
That... "oh she feels better than me "
I lost to envy, forgive me!  She wailed

That wasn't for me, was it?
How do forgiveness happen?
When do amnesia remember?
How dare my mind erase this rape?
Rape planned by my "trusted-buddy"

I wanted to marry a virgin, she had me raped, brutally.
She stole the world I have built with diamonds in a flash
I lost it all
Sorry, I'll loose my mind....

now you know

                   A tale of a betrayed friend
                     Written by Elan (G. O)